I’ve been off my feed lately.
For the last several weeks, I just felt like I’d lost my mojo. I haven’t felt particularly good about myself. I’ve been busy, and in some cases doing great things, but failed to do others that I had committed to doing. When I’d get ready to start working on those commitments, either something else would come up, or I simply couldn’t bring myself to do them. I was exhausted all the time, and nothing could break the slump. I’d go for a motorcycle ride, and it was good while I was there, but once I got off the bike, I was right back where I started. The gym became a chore rather than a challenge. I wasn’t even really enjoying time with the family. I took a vacation in the middle of it, and couldn’t seem to get where I wanted to be. All the elements were right, it just didn’t bring me to the place I wanted to get to in my head… or maybe out of it.
Yesterday, we had our quarterly all-day executive meeting. I wasn’t looking forward to it. I came into it and admitted I was fried, and I felt like a hamster in a wheel.
About a third of the way through the day, I realized something.
I’ve broken just about every routine I follow for the last several weeks – roughly the same amount of time that I’ve been feeling bad. I haven’t been as religious about going to the gym two days on and one day off. I somehow lost the discipline of blocking one day on my calendar where I don’t take meetings. I’ve been eating pretty much anything I want and not tracking it. I took my weekly 1-hour clarity break off my calendar. Due to my travel schedule, my time with my daughter has been off-schedule.
The next few days are dedicated to getting back to that routine. I went to the gym yesterday and today, and will be off tomorrow. I’ve canceled or moved all meetings that occur on Tuesdays so I can get work done. I just scheduled an hour clarity break every Wednesday. I put my meals in MyFitnessPal today. The only thing I can’t completely control is my travel schedule, but I’m trying to be more cognizant and protective when I’m scheduling that, too.
You know what? I feel better already.